*Sighing* - Its My Thing at the Moment

Well I do have a lot to cry about right now:

a) Two (2) broken relationships

b) Unemployment

c) Lack of Care - a general conscensus - only when I cry do people actually give a damn

d) Paranoia - but actually real see last blog before this one

e) *Sigh* thought I had a boyfriend or a a "guy-friend" who it turns out wasn't really Into Me, just like that movie

f) Eminnent hybernation would be the safest way to live for the next 6 months rather than monitoring everything I say in public from now on

g) Only God who is Jesus Christ the Living God trully understands, He'll never get sick of me or say: Go Away forever, I don't like you that much

h) I think Hairy Potter really broke my heart in such a major way and as much as I don't know how I feel about him, he's shown his true colours and they are, I don't know, quite useless, I think I really hate him so much right now. For a caring type of guy, he is a shithead really.

i) Which is so sad. I may be going through emotional turmoil, but all I needed was a friend who could care about me

j) I'm almost over him I think, when I don't feel anger or anything at all, I think I'll know I can and have moved on

k) It breaks my heart that as fun as it was and as much as I felt he was the type of "guy" for me, I've had to learn that I'm not ready and that this year is not a good year.

l) I'm still a blimp - I have 25 kilos to lose still

m1) I've lost 7% total body fat but I'm still carrying around 2.5 big bags of potatoes too much. (25 kilos)

m2) A friend said she lost 10 kilos in a month. Eeeek!! I think that sounds a bit unhealthy really.



n) Is for NICE who one (1) day I hope I'll become
o) Is for opportunity to grow and learn
p) Is for people who don't really care
q) Is for quirky which I think describes me?
r) Is for rushed, that dumb relationship I tried to start with HP
s) Is for sad, my current state of being
t) Is for trouble...
u) Is for unicorn coz I wish I could ride one
v) Is for very well - the gym and my physios say that I'm doing
w) Is for worried about my physical, emotional and total well-being
x) Is for x-ray which says my bones are not damaged, just soft tissue (yayayayyayyyy)
y) Is for Y did it happen to me?
z) Is for Omega - Greek for the End and for God's Name the Alpha and Omega, the Beginning and the End - Does that make me the sandwich in the middle...?