Anorexic and Suicidal Behaviour

Yep so I don't want to eat and I've realised that the "shock effect" the "shock reaction" I was looking for on Facebook, all those times I placed shit on FB, were all part of the insanity.

I still feel like I'm losing my mind, I have moments when I'm on my way to my bedroom and my eyes blank over and my mind feels like its retreating.

I get what Rushton* has gone through. How he was tormented and such by Ariel*

I understand how he went insane. I guess for me, there is no Elspeth* but Jesus. No one loves me enough to save me from my own sanity. I have to find it myself.

Please pray for me. I don't want to eat or live right now. But I make those choices, coz I know, if I don't I won't live, I'll die slowly and painfully.

"Depression and Anxiety, the double dosage of death"



Fictional characters from Chronicles of Obernewtyn my fave book. I might read the series once more...