A Kinda Shit Day Today

Today is Wednesday, I know that much, I kept forgetting what day it was and what I had to do.

That is a serious sign of depression and I hate it.

I have some rainforest music on and I feel a bit more peaceful.

The doctor was a bit reluctant to do some paperwork for me, I guess it was close to her lunch time or something, she said come back in a month and I said, no I want to submit all of the paperwork for all three things all at once.

Some people suggested that to me and I agree.

12/03/2009 is fast approaching, well it feels that way in my head. Its the first major event in my calendar. I am still so stressed about everything. Forgetting HP is easier today, very glad about that.

I've made an appointment with my advocate who will walk with me through everything. I am glad that I have just the one person, yet it seems, well I do hope it will be enough. I am feeling like not talking about it.

I go through those phases where I just don't want to talk about stuff.

Tonight I got quite shitty and asked Mum not to talk to me. She finally stopped. She still won't respect my NO!! Saying Fucking NO!

Isn't respectful towards her apparently, so she don't respond to that either. Yet its ok if she says to me "Oh for FUCKS sake!!" bullshit of a mother.

She doesn't get it that she doesn't treat me with respect, but coz I am under her roof and this is her house and I eat her food and she pays the bills for now...you get the picture.

I can't wait til I can move out.

My back is sore, so I probably wont hang out on FB tonight.

Not that it really seems like hanging out. I feel lonely even there...but that's ok.

Once I get rid of this shit inside and I feel better about myself and I get my new computie loaded up, then I can get into some games or rpg or something...

'Nigh 'nigh