I Feel Better Now

Phew!!!

My mood has lifted and I feel free from the burden of living in an abusive household.

She even said, in a joking tone: "Maybe you could move to A to live with Clarence."

As if, as much as I'd love to move there and be with my bf, that is not my life, but her life.


I know as much as I hate it here, right where I am right now is where I have to be.

I'm finding a way out, but there is waiting involved and I am so glad that I can type neater than I can write.

Thank God I have an online journal. This place is my place of safety where I can say what I like and it doesn't matter if no one responds, coz I know I have an audience of one and that is all that matters to me right now.

That someone cares about me, that someone accepts me just as messed up as I am and they don't care how gross I look inside or am on the inside.

Unconditional love is what everyone needs, but not everyone can find in this broken world.

I thank God I have a true friend in Clarence and also that I now have Him who is helping me when no one else can.

This is Zen feeling better :) yayayayayyyyyyyyy!!!! thank you Jesus.