Hairy Potter Update

Ok, so things have somewhat progressed, coz I couldn't make it to Perth today and tomorrow I think I need to spend alone, I will "avoid" him.

Not that I want to, but I know I'm not emotionally strong enough to start a relationship with him and I know that it would be best if we were friends until I've got a clear head/heart/spirit.

So the ball is in my court. After I sent the sms about not being able to meet up with him. He called straight away and as I was in the throws of chucking up, I couldn't answer. So I'll downplay it when we next talk.

Its too early to freak him out about what I've been going through. It freaks me out so much that I need more time off work.

But its all good, when I'm ready to make the next contact, I will, I might suggest a friend outing first, Nalynn asked me if we could invite him to the beach and I'd love that!! I of course made and excuse for him: "He's overweight, so I don't know if he'd like that, I'll have to ask him."

So I've got to stop being silly about that, its his body, he can go to the beach if he likes. Going to the beach fat is one of my insecurities!! Well not any longer, I went swimming at the pool, so when N comes back, I'll have to ask her and her boyfriend if we can set up the beach thing. I love the beach.

Well taaa taaaaa!!

Zen over and out...