A Blockhead for a Mother

Every time I try to say something to Mum this is what she does:

• She shuts me down
• She shuts me out
• She shuts me in
• She shuts me*

*[in such an angry and frustrating way, I say to her: "You're not listening to me, you're talking over top of me" and she pretends she hasn't heard me say it]

The Zenith definition of a Blockhead:

Typically do not listen to anything that is being communicated, they talk over top and don't care enough nor have enough respect to actually give a damn about a person's feelings or what they are saying.

She's about one blockhead enough for me. Mind you the Block is typically a nicer way of saying something else.

I don't care what she thinks of me, she's so self righteous in thinking that she actually cares about me, because she doesn't she is the biggest bully in my whole damn life and I want out. Assumption is her middle name and she frequently does not even try to understand me. And as a good friend of mine said once, "If they don't understand you, then they don't support you."

How can I get out?

I was going to stay here until I got my licence, but at this stage, it doesn't look like I'll be able to.

I've got to think of some major self care actions.

She *itches all the time and she is the one who the most negative influence in my life. My own mother, how sad is that? She really doesn't get that I hate her, coz that's how I feel right now. I probably have harboured those feelings for her all my life. She is so self-serving, such a martyr all the time.

For my own health sake, I'll have to take a look at getting out, permanently.