Oh Dear!!!

I searched for Zen in google and oh dear!! It came up with some line. So I don't know what to do!!

I won't ever tell anyone about my blog now, but then this blog is so tell all, I hope the people who know me except for Clarence, don't stumble across it.

Ok, no panic attacks are necessary!!!!! Oh shit!

Well I've got a HP update: He asked me if I wanted to catch up for coffee. I was too easy though, I said:

May b when wher? Hope you have fun :)

I gave the dorky girl an opening to call me, will blog the sms later, and he said he had to wrap a presie for his mates bday!!

Well, S and I totally paid him out while we were waiting for the Kenyan tribe to arrive for New Year's Eve at the BP.

He has confessed he is a professional illustrator and that he is colour blind, I felt sorry for the idiot and told him how I see the world, in shapes and colours. I fell for that one!!

The only 2 colours he can't see well is some shade crimson and a grey green. So I'm going to have to find clothes in those shades if this goes any further just so I can make fun of him. Yes I am a mean girl who is a friend. I like the whole pushing buttons thing, well to an extent...

Everybody sing it!! To the tune of "I'm a little teapot, short and stout"

he's a little robot,
tall and stout,
there is his weakness
and here is my wand, [finding more buttons?]
Press all his buttons and hear him growl [cry or *grrrrrr* (may b that is too far?)] nah it sounds like fun to me :)

Well as J my C has said, it is definitely fun. Now its time for him to do all the work and for me to do nothing. He is going to pursue me whether he likes it or not. Whilst I will stand back and use my womanly wiles in enjoying my life and getting my life back together.

The stress has totally gone, I feel my body is so much better. I really want the physical restrictions to be lifted so I can feel like I am not being watched. I might go and make an appointment with DT and see if he will lift the restrictions.

I still don't want to go back to work, as I have some stress to deal with, but then I really want to physically be free.

I might make that appointment with DT this week.

The meds are not necessary at this stage, though I think I need to wait for my new bed so I've got that to back me up. I do get tired out and I need to be more careful in public. The paparazzi might just be snapping at me.

*sigh* it's almost over.

Nigh' nigh'